Monday, September 07, 2009
ok.. i have been lazy.. i noe that...
skol gonna start again..
and i'm so not looking forward to it..
hari raya is in 2 wks time.. and i haven even finish cleaning up and painting my room..
guess this year will be a new color again.. ( i been painting my room once a year... )
Last yr is blue.. and the previous year is purple...
this year... um.. pink with ... haven decided on tht..
Lol..
This yr is a special year for me..
lol..
though so many things have happen..
i believed i have changed.. in a good and bad way..
now, i guess i gradully learn to understand myself better..
though i'm bad at expressing my thots..
please try to understand.. i am trying my best to overcome this..
i told my mum that i have alot of things i wanna do..
she go " wad u wanna do somemore...?"
there are so many things.. that i dunno which should i do 1st...
learning new things need money and importantly time..
i'm already juggling work, degree and japanese..
it is tough..
but i noe i can overcome this...
Who saes that i have not been serious in my studies just becoz of my lousy poly grades..
well.. now i'm getting quite ok results in degree
Who saes that i made this decision.. so i should not grumble..
well... please understand.. i need to vent my anger and unhappiness .. i cant go ard.. throwing things rite..
Who saes that i will not be able to complete and will faill all my units..
Well.. so far my grades are really quite ok... damn angry over one unit.. short of 1 marks to get a D!! argh...
alot of ppl doubt that i will succeed in juggling all 3 at the same time..
well.. i have been doing it for more than a yr now.. so i guess i prove u wrg... i muz admit it is not easy..
if i can go back in time.. ( okok.. juz watch 17 again recently..) i will wanna go back to my O lvl days...and choose the course i like not what others like or think i should take.. i shld have just listen to myself..
With Y, 9/07/2009 01:21:00 AM
