Saturday, November 11, 2006
i noe i juz blogged tis aft.. like 7 hrs ago.. but i dunno y .. i think i need to blog.. to help keep mi sane.. i tink at nite is the hardest time.. coz i will be ther thinking abt wad i did wrg.. and feeling guilty abt my actions.. as i shld have think b4 i do anything.. nite is also the time tht u let down ur guard, if u wanna cry, juz cry urself to slp.. i felt better.. i even on my mp3 and listen to it til i fall aslp.. coz i cant stand the quiet surrounding at nite.. i cant slp... i need to noe that i'm not alone... coz i'm scared of being alone... here i am blogging in the wee hrs again, yeah.. i think u al muz have guess it.. i'm feeling kinda of moody.. mind is tired.. but my eyes juz wont close.. i dunno wads wrg with me... i can laugh and smile in the aft.. but at nite, there i will be crying .. and i cry til i'm so tired.. tht i able to slp.. wake up with puffy eyes.. wads wrg with me... am i thinkin too much... i dunno wads wrg.. hope the cycle will break soon...coz i dun think i can take it anymore, i will go crazy... if u ask mi, wads wrg with u lately, i will tell u .. i dunno.. i dunno how to express wad have been happening... its hurts, wen u noe tht u are not like the normal girls.. u cant do this or u cant wear this.. coz of some probz.. how u envy them... i tried so hard to convince myself tht i dun care wad ppl would think...but each time i look at it.. i noe i cant make it.. nvm.. u al dun understand wad i'm talkin abt anyway...haiz..
With Y, 11/11/2006 01:52:00 AM
