Tuesday, August 08, 2006
haiz.. dunno wads wrg with me lately... felt so sad.. everynite.. full of worries.. alot of thinkin done that causes insomia... keep thinkin and thinkin.. i felt fear.. all of a sudden.. fear of affecting ppl ard me.. fear of falling deeper and deeper... fear of everything.. i know i muz not fall any deeper.. but it is beyond my control.. though i will try to control it.. as best as i could.. i juz felt that it is not worth it.. studying and studyin.. but it is nt wad i want.. wad i wan is beyond my reach .. really hard to accomplish.. i dun wanna hurt them(parents).. but they will not understand wads in my mind.. no matter how many hints from me.. they stil give the same ans.. i'm so sick of hearing it.. the more they tel mi not to do something.. the more i will do it.. juz to make them angry..i wanna sae thxs to the ppl(real life & game) ard me .. really thxs for being ther wen i need u ... each and everyone of u... xiexie ni men... w/o u guyz, i will not be wad i am todae... thxs.. for everything u given mi... really thxs so much guyz.. i will always rmb u all..
With Y, 8/08/2006 01:16:00 AM
