Wednesday, July 06, 2005
i'm now 30% back to normal... fall asleep in the bus.. and sleepin aft reaching home had make mi temporary forget all the troubles... all the unhapiness... al the depressing thot... surrounding mi....but still i can't seem to get away from all this.. can't find a reason to be hapi... no one will think tht i'm having a problem here... coz all they see is my other self... a person who smiles and laugh everydae... they will neve expect such things to happen to me.. a person who everyone believes tht she is optimistic... wher she can take it if the world come crushin down on her.. she is able to laugh abt it and find a solution to it.. i'm fallin apart... i think i have a problem... a problem tht no one else can solve but myself....i felt so alonei'm shivering from the coldnesscoldness that is totally caused by mii dun hav the reason to be happi at alli juz live each dae like a zombiedoing wad ppl wan mi toi'm juz followin themif not, i have no other purpose in lifei seem to be standin on a steep hill...one step will relieve mi of the sadnessif i juz stood theri will b tormentedi keep telling myself i'm strongi will b able to overcome thisbut i'm juz lyin to myself and my frensi have given up on myselftotally given upwads the use of overcomin iti will let it bei wil let the situation torment me each dae and niteif one dae, i can't bear it anymorei will juz take one step aheadand all my troubles will be gone.............
With Y, 7/06/2005 08:05:00 PM
