Saturday, September 11, 2004
today i'm feelin really really sad..!! dunno why...!! :(
i kept on playin pool but time seems to pass by so slowly...!! so sianz...!! help any one help mi...!! :'(
mayb i'm sad as i cannot celebrate my 18th birthday...!! which is 20th of this month...!! why ar we havin more and more test and the test for the subject tht i hate is aft my birthday...!! i'm stuck at home studyin..!! i'm so sick of this so called poly life...!! i need to unwind but i dunno how..!!
my frens is havin a bbq.... but my long time best fren cannot go...!! i'm so sad...!! i have always been waitin for this day to arrive and have a great time with all my frens ... but i guess.. i'm not important to them at all...!!
thus..., my 18th birthday is the same as b4... nothing special again..!! :)
but i hope ppl can remember my birthday and at least sent mi a msg ... it will help to make mi a bit happier...!!
i'm a gal who is very very emotional i guess...!! i cried while watchin 13 goin on 30 at the ending part...!! wher the guy got married... and the gal was cryin coz of her mistake..!! i hope tht i'm not like tht gal who regrets her actions .... i wan to live everyday without regrets.. but am i able too...?? i sometimes wonder... wad ppl think of mi..?? as some joker...?? a stupid fool who is irritatin...?? an annoyin fellow...?? i wan to noe al the answers...?? but am i able to accept al the negative ones...?? i wonder...?? :(
all my best frens seem to have their own lifestyle.... but i hate changes ...i cannot find any real frens anymore...!! i'm scared tht our frenships will have gaps soon....!! coz every one gets on with ther new environment...!! but not mi...!! i cannot accept the fact tht my close frens ar not with mi now.... in poly!! i really can't.... !!
even though 2 is in the same poly.., but our chance of meetin is 0.1.. like juz an occasional hi and then bye..!! wad had happen to mi...?? why can't i accept the changes...?? why...?? why...?? why...??
cannot continue any more as my tears keep flowin down my cheeks...!!
With Y, 9/11/2004 05:20:00 PM
